A Hit and Run of the Heart

A Hit and Run of the Heart 

New world

New things

New pleasures

So serene.

Give me a taste

Then let me be

To fall to my knees

To regret many things.

Gave me the time

Just enough i am sure

Was your plan from the beginning,

You hooked me like a cure.

Unsure at first, now stuck I am. 

My heart speared through 

Like a fish caught in a trap.

Its a trap no one said

So i leapt with both feet.

Blind as always 

Irreversible deceit.

You think I would learn

So skeptic i usually am,

At men, at boys, 

At humankind,

Its usually the plan.

Who gives without nothing in return.

Theres no pure of heart, 

No true love for sure.

Relativities my refuge

There I find my relief,

For all is unsure

If you even cared for me.

I doubt myself 

Of course I doubt you

Because who, oh who, 

Could love such a fool.

Riddled with self deprivation 

So deep,

To believe 

Yes, believe, 

That there is no one for me.

I have been so alone, 

For far too long.

I don’t know what I deserve.

Is it something like this, 

Or am i a delusion twit.

Should I expect a prince

Or is it all make believe.

That lie that was told 

To a fake princess like me.

Just know when you leave 

You will hurt me so deep.

The hit and run of the heart 

Is a horrible thing.

You may say we will talk

That you’ll visit me soon

But Im weak and 

I can’t believe 

That these

False pretenses are true

Lies they all seem

So you can leave me

And find someone so keen

That you’ll leave me for them

Faster than a kid in a dream

Actings not my career, 

But with a lack of transparency

I’ll try hard to hid 

My doubt from my face.

For my insecurities are a blanket

Covering me with tears.

If i expect the worse

There is nothing I can fear.

From the outside world

Trying to make me feel worse

For doubting my worth.

So i will sit here

And listen to you talk. 

And pretend like my life 

Is great without fuss.

So i guess what i need 

Is someone to hear 

Those screams,

Oh those screams.

Through this quite serene 

Face that you see.

If you cant do that 

Then please leave me be

A hit and run of the heart

Is a horrible thing.

                 - Rally Class