Soo I am super duper excited!!! I know what I want to do for the next three years!!!! and really I find this such an accomplishment since I had no idea what i would do once I was done with school.(if i ever get done) I know that it is totally not where i was going ,but I really feel that this is something I can really do for a long amount of time.
What is it you ask? well it is teaching. In all honesty I am pretty sure I vowed to myself to never, ever become a teacher! I think I shocked myself with how much I loved zoo camp and utlimately teaching the kids new things! By the second year I craved zoo camp! I could not wait to teach about nature! It made me realize that though i love learning about science. I loved teaching it more. I can not tell you how reluctant I was to even think that i would be a teacher. Although,The more I thought about the possibility the more it made sense.
I love learning and I love telling others about what i am passionate about. I began to think that maybe I could teach. I started off at eighteen thinking i was going to be this big large animal vet,but i was wrong. Slowly as the years have gone by i have thought well maybe now i will work in a zoo, maybe i will be a parasitologist. But none of these things really work for me. Even though I absolutely love the zoo; i want to see where teaching will take me!
I know that in my heart i am restless. I am not one to just stay in one place for too long, and thank the Lord that I am young and can seek out my yearning for movement. So not only do i want to teach, but i think i want to start off teaching English in a foreign country. I do not see anything wrong or bad with this. I feel that as long as i am smart about it I will be able to accomplish many things. I believe that i would be able to save a good amount of money for my loans. I will be able to gain teaching experience and see if this is truly what i want. and finally i will be able to see a new culture a sooth my restless spirit.
I find this to be an answer to one of my prayer request to God from a couple years ago. I felt so utterly lost and confused. I was angry that I may have not been smart enough for the field that I wanted to be in. I was devastated that i was slowly loosing my enthusiasm for learning. I wanted so bad to be a vet!!! sooooo bad ,but I began to wonder if i could do it and then I could no longer picture myself ever being that. It hurt my heart sooo much. I also saw how i was failing at all I was doing in school. Nothing was important, even though i wanted it to be. I really think it was a time when i just was completely lost. I can't say now that I am found and am more driven ,but now i have something to put all my effort into. I have a light at the end of the tunnel that was not there 7 or 8 months ago.
So how am I going to accomplish this goal so that in two years I will be teaching abroad. Well I thought it through and it might be best to stay in my general area major ,but change it to environmental science. In all honesty if i end up hating teaching( which i highly doubt i will) I still do love animals and trying to be an influence to this world. I would be able to help with conservation. But if teaching works out and i love it sooo much that i want to teach ,back in the states i can. this would allow me to take summers to still help with conservation or research. Its a win win(hopefully).
So I will finish up my bs in science and hopefully get my teaching credentials( or at least start my teaching credentials). This will take a year which will start in august. What will I do until then well get as much of my teaching credential classes in as possible. I will also take a tesol course so that i will be able to teach effectively in whatever country i am in. I also want to get volunteer hours in at a school. so i also plan on do that. I plan to be busy for a good year and half. Starting in january hopefully I can get at least the volunteering and classes started.
I am so at peace with this decision that just seemed to come upon me. I did not think i would teach in a foreign country. I do not even really know how I came upon the idea. All i know is that this is the right move for me. I never thought i would want to be a teacher, but their are tons of things in my life I thought I would never want. I feel that God has been telling me all along that this was the right move to make. I just really wanted to do everything else except what He wanted for me.
-Zofia
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