I just ranted on my other blog and I think I have calmed down enough to write about my day. Today started off bad and it ended bad. I lost my binder and I still can't find it. So almost the whole day I was redoing my homework but throughout the day. I have found some very interesting and upsetting things. In Bible (for sake of secrecy I will call them some thing else)hana and mark are talking to Joseph about who he was going to the banquet with and they end up trying to convince him to ask me. So in health which we have in another class room mak and Joseph are talking about asking me to the banquet. Mind you I am sitting right next to mark who is next to Joseph(come on you can't seriously believe I couldn't hear every word they said ,but whatever was said I heard.) What I didn't like was this. Ok he didn't want to ask me because he thought that I would say no. (on the contrary I would have said yes). Secondly, he said the only reason he asked me out for homecoming was because of Lara, Quetzal, and Martha and that this time it was only hana and mark and that wasn't enough people to convince him to ask me. That right there got me pissed. Oh if I hadn't looked like I was diligently doing my math I would have lashed out at him. Oh I was seriously containing myself with every ounce of sanity I had.(cause I was doing my math[ these two have got to be idoits if they didn't realize I could hear them) And you know what that got me thinking if he was pushed by peer pressure to go to homecoming with me. Then why the hell did he ask me out on a date. Oh I feel used. You know what He is such a jerk sometimes. So then I go through my classes until I am geting ready for my game around p.e. time. I talk to hana and she tells me that he wants to go with dann but is afraid to ask her and that they were discouraging him from asking her cause they said she would say no. (Seriously I think there was alot more he said cause she tried to say it casually but it seemed rushed. she then went on to something else) and it reminded me of the time La said that he prefered to date skinny blonds.( I don't want to derail him of all his reliablity of at least being midily ok at times ,but he might have said white skinny blonds but I highly doubt it and unless it comes out of his mouth I am going to say that he did not say that)(I am keeping this here because I promised myself to write everything down here so I am keeping it though now I wish I would not have doubted or thought that in the first place) See even when Dann feeds on a relationship of another she can apparantly destroy more than one. Wow, she is multitalented!!! I mean what in the world do they see in her really what. is the fact that she wears a thong or something like that. What cause I have curves I am not attractive Do you have to be a stick to get noticed. Oh guys in are school are real idoits. Me and guys just don't work out.
This pic represents what was and and when I actually thought it would all work out .I don't know what will happen but I know that it prop. won't be very good in the end.
So I have concluded that I am very angry at what I heard today and that if they do get him to ask me. I will seriously have to think about going with him even as friends.
-Zofia
3 comments:
Hello! ^^ wow...you should have told be bout this bloggy sooner haha! I would have been able to tell you more bout all of the stuff thatz been going on! Anyways, dont ever compare yourself to others....especially DAnn!! If some guy would rather go out with her for some unknown stupid reasons, then they dont deserve you! You dont deserve to be hurt by somebody stupid like that! If they cant see the amazing person that you are, then they have issues! ^^ *big hug*! Ooo and thanx for your concerns about our previous problems...its good to know that others care! And if you ever need to talk bout any of this, we are here for you!!! ^^
Zofia, don't ever compare yourself with a ferret like D'Ann. She isn't worth it. I have learned to accept that. She only goes out/lets guys on and then dumps them just to fulfill her stupid lusts and wants. It is very stupid. But, don't compare yourself to her. Trust me. I have compared myself to her. Why doesn't Sam like me? Why does he like her instead? Was I not a good enough person? Was I not pretty enough? Was I not thin enough? Was I not -insert other word-? I still sometimes question myself, but really, don't do that. You are fine just the way you are. If God wanted you to look like a stick that could be broken in two, He would. Just like me. I am not a stick; I am not fat; I am in between. I am sturdy enough to handle physical and mental attacks from anyone. That is how God made me. You are as well. You can handle anything, while D'Ann goes spastic if she breaks a nail.
Don't ever compare yourself to her. You are a much better person than she ever will be. We love you just the way you are.
thanks guys you have been such a blessing and I will try always to not compare myself but sometimes it is hard.
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