horrific day

I guess you can say it started out good and ended really really bad. To think that it was only a jester that i could feel unsettlement around was already unerving me. Though it was for different reasons. Wow how God can put our thoughts into perspective. My petty pray seems nothing to what He has placed in front of me. I don't know how any of us are going to get over it, and all i want to do is cry.but I think that two of us have realized that we must be strong for the rest. I don't know how but hed will provide. I knew that God was going to change my life dramatically after high school. I could feel it each time I filled out an application to college, and I hated it.I really did. All I wanted was for things to remain the same. But now God has also changed the one ting I thought to be a safe haven. It will not be easy to accept all this change and to not become bitter. I am fighing bitterness now. How can i protect myself from my heart to harden. I don't want to feel nothing and have a hardened heart about what has happened ageinst others and angainst christ. I wanted at least one thing to not change in my life. Not only am I moving away ,but the family, city, and church I am now at our not going to be in my life for very long.
Life seemed so simple when all i had to worry about was if I was going to watch the next episode of fullmetal alchemist, now I have so much more. I guess the only thing to do is pray. That is all I have heard lately is to pray. Leave it in God's Hands but sometimes it just seems so hard.


-Zofia